به هوش بودم از اول - My story of being awake
When the surgeon picked up the scalpel, the only thought screaming through my head was به هوش بودم از اول, even though I couldn't move a single muscle to let them know. It's one of those things you hear about in urban legends or late-night horror stories, but you never actually think it's going to happen to you. One minute you're counting backward from ten, feeling that cold rush of the IV meds hitting your vein, and the next, you're supposed to be in a deep, dreamless sleep. Except, for me, the lights stayed on. ...